Sunday, December 6, 2009

I Used to Be...

I think I was anyway.
I sure hope I was.
I like to envision myself as fun, but now I am boring.
I must be because I can't think of anything to blog about.
Well, actually, I've thought of a few things to blog about, but before my fingers could hit the keyboard, I lost steam. Yeah, not even partial drafts of blog posts, but absolutely no blog posts.
Maybe that means I'm still fun, but lazy. Yeah, maybe I'm lazy, but I don't feel lazy. I mean sometimes I feel lazy when I find myself getting excited about putting the kids to bed, so that I can break out the foods I hide from them, so I don't have to share. (lazy and selfish a bit too)
I feel stressed sometimes during the holidays. I've been debating back and forth, back and forth. Do I do treats for friends? I've done them every single year since I started the tradition. Even when Owen was only three weeks old. Even when Eli was only a month and a half old. I did those treat plates and I really like taking a little bit of love to my friends, but I'm debating doing it at all this year.
I've been cold. Yeah, it's been cold for us. Down in the 50s or some other frigid temperature I don't want to feel. I want to have temperate weather. I endure those 100+ degree days to have winters where I wear my sandals everywhere. I've had to wear socks all week! Socks.
Phew, I sound really whiney. I'm not meaning to. The cold does this to me. Well, I'm also a bit hungry too. It's my first time fasting in about two years. Not that anyone is counting, but I've only got 53 minutes left to go.
I shouldn't even post this because it's really lame, but my mom requested I update my blog. Boy, she's going to be impressed huh? 52 minutes and counting...


Thomas said...

Hi Audrey!
Not to make you feel bad or anything, but just so you know, we keep our house in the 50s :)

Thanks for helping us popsicles up here laugh at ourselves!

Kelli said...

Hiding food from the kids huh? I do the same thing! In fact, I made peppermint oreos yesterday and I will only eat them when the kids are in bed or not around, like upstairs.

I hear ya about the cold thing, it has been in the 20's here and I have turned into a hermit, I don't go out unless it is absolutely necessary. Which has made me ask myself, does Anika really need to go to school and do we really need food? I guess the answer is yes, but some mornings I really want it to be no!

Good job on fasting! In my head I can picture you by your fridge with a clock watch in your hand counting down the seconds :) Hopefully you broke your fast with something delicious, like chocolate!

P.S. I think you're fun! You're one of the funnest and funniest people I know!

jayne said...

I often feel the exact same way. BTW--I heard about the book you mentioned. I think I'm going to go buy it, hide under my covers, and eat the food that I hide from my kids....I'm serious.

Lara said...

Fasting does make one whiny. Not that you were.

Some years I don't feel like doing the whole treat thing, either. So I find something else to do. Like candles. Or cookie cutters. Let them make their own darn treats. :)

Mariley Johnson said...

I had to laugh about the fasting. My sister was just tellig me it's been like 9 years since she fasted! 5 kids!
I was especially grouchy today...

I hear you though... about the funk. Hope you get out of it soon.

Lyndsey said...

A. you are fun and you made me laugh hard
B. I think you should do the treats this year...
C. Lets have a play date so when you are making those treats you remember me :)

Adalee Petersen said...

Makes me really ponder my current state of mortality. I lose a lot of my sense of invincibility.


Heather said...

Oh I feel so bad for you in your 50 degree weather! You poor thing. We woke up to 3 inches of SNOW this morning. booooo!!! Ok the first snow is ok, but I just know it's going to last until like June so I can't get too excited about it.

Anyhoo.. you look fabulous! The whole family does. I love your family pictures! I am so sorry I have been so selfish and in my own world. It's nice to catch up with you.

I totally understand your dilemma about the treats. I have resorted to lameness like giving hot cocoa and bath and body works soap.. but man that adds up! But making treats takes SOO much time.

Well.. I still think you're fun. I think I'm ok fun and I never blog! :)

Lauren and Trevor said...

Cold and hunger do the same to me, but this is usually nothing that a little hot chocolate can't remediate.

Mama Corleone said...

I think we all have a tendency to get like this at times. That's probably why I love to read posts about how people are really feeling. Sometimes blogs are just too unreal for me.

I just sent my daughter to the bus stop in -11 degrees. Ridiculous. But I agree with you, if I had to endure the summer heat, I'd totally expect the winter to be wonderful!

Tiffini said...

yeah - i know how you feel. i found myself laughing throughout this post because i can relate - all too well! sigh.

it's nice to know that i'm not the only one! (i just hope my "whiney" posts come out as eloquent as yours!)

Jack and Annie said...

Aww you are fun and always make me laugh! Our house is cold too! I am running around in socks, sweats and a sweatshirt! I vote for treats ;) but sometimes a good recipe or a yummy smelling candle works just as well!

DKAZ said...

You took the words right out of my mouth...well that and fasting did.

I think Lara has a great point, there are other things you can do besides breaking your back to make treats for can break your back making something else for them-haha.

Good luck, I can't wait to see what you bring me!

wackywilsons said...

Obviously, from all the people that post on your blog, you are not lazy or boring...but FUN to read!

I am glad I am not the only one who hides treats from my the raw cookie dough I have in the freezer...yummy.

Keep on posting your "boring" blogs b/c I think they are great!

rachel said...

You too?!? I am the most Christmasy person ever (in my own mind;).. well except this year. For whatever reason. I have wrapped two or three things and that's it. I can't get into the mood. I put the tree up in December! What! Ya I am one of those who typically puts it up before Thanksgiving. The cold could definitely be a factor here and I am the same with my blog. My mom has also had similar requests. What to do? Let me know what you come up with.

JenW said...

oh man. i totally wait until they are asleep to eat things. ahhhh....fasting. i think you are fun and funny and you know what? if you don't want to do the treat plates, don't, i know i'll love you even if no treats:)

Jessica Martiele said...

Oh, Audrey, you WERE fun! Honest!

And based on what I read on your blog, you're STILL fun! :) (Actually, it's based on your blog, your emails, and that random visit a few months back. More than fun, really. Awesome.)

It's cold here, too. People outside AZ/CA don't understand how we get so cold. It's all relative, though. Seriously.

And I avoid fasting as much as possible. I know people love the visions and spiritual closeness/weepiness it brings on, but I tend to think of that as just serious deprivation-based hallucinations. Then again, we all know what kind of Mormon I am. :) So...good luck with yours!

Yolanda said...

Wow that's a lot of comments for a lot of the way don't ever move to Michigan if the cold makes you that way. I've been wearing DOUBLE socks, one normal, one thick and fuzzy...on a regular basis you sissy. :) And this year was the first year I've done treats for like uhh...6 years? I tried a couple years in a row and it always turned into a huge disaster and so I said forget it. This year I successfully did some fabulous caramel who cares if you don't do it, there's a lot of people out there who don't, know one is keeping track. I say take a break.