My husband took me to the movies last weekend. As you can guess from the title, we saw The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. For those of you literary types, you can easily access this very short book on the internet free of charge--but the movie doesn't follow the book in the least.
I really like movies that make me think about my own mortality. In Benjamin's case, he was going through life backwards--physically that is. Though I certainly can't relate to that--except for those darn gray hairs that have popped up in the last couple years and seem to be multiplying rather quickly. I'm much too young to have gray hair right? (I seem to sidetrack much too often when I write...)
Some of the ideas in the movie really hit home to me though. The idea that there are some people who you know for such a short time, but have such a profound impact on your life. I can remember my first piano teacher and her wiry hair. She really inspired me to love the piano--not enough to practice regularly, but still. Sadly, she moved away after a year and my second teacher simply frustrated me and I quit. Both women, though involved in my life only briefly, had major impact.
I recently signed up on Facebook--as most of you know who are now my "friends." I have been seeing photos and getting caught up with several people who I knew only through middle school through high school graduation. Though that seems like a rather lengthy period of time--in the grand scheme of things, it really isn't. I've already been married longer than I knew those people I graduated with.
Since having three children, I have really struggled and still do struggle with finding some sort of a balance with my children, my husband, my faith and even myself. There are so many good things I would like to do with my family and for myself, but I'm having a hard time finding any time. It feels a lot like my expectations for the Christmas holiday only strung out for who knows how long...
The movie helped to remind me that my children are only this tiny age for such a short time. Too soon I'm sure they won't value my opinion over their friends. Too soon they won't want to show me all of their school projects. Too soon they won't say cute, funny little things. My house will be dirty forever, but my kids won't be tiny that long. These valuable relationships that we treasure, we have them on this earth for such a short time, but our impact on each other can be incredibly profound--both for good and bad.
This life really is such a short journey. There are so many good options and opportunities. I hope that I am picking the right ones. I hope that I'm utilizing this brief time for all it's worth.